What a leak

This is not me complaining...it's just venting and contemplating...

Anyone else happy that school will be back in session this week?
Yay. Me too.

Anyone else wondering where their child will be sleeping because their house has water damage or no walls right now?
Yay. Me too.

Anyone else thinking of keeping their kids out just a few more days, let them be evacuated to wherever, while your home gets put back together.....
Shit. Me too.

Am I a good mom? IDK
Am I making the right choice for them? IDK
Will the school punish them for not being at school for the first 3 days? IDK

But do I care? No.
I'll fight it. My kids have no where to sleep in my home. We can't get to most of their clothes.
Did we have it as bad as others? No way. But I'm not letting my kids come home to rooms so full of, you can barely open the door. Rooms so  bare and so torn up, that you can see daylight thru holes in the walls.

I'm tough as nails when it comes to my kids....but this house isn't there home and if I can spare them from...maybe feeling less safe in this home, because they saw how weakend it was.... This house is safe. This is their house. This house, was bought, so they would have more safe places than the apartment we were crammed into.

I'm at a loss....
Anyone else have kids going back to school this week, but y'all are still flooded out, evacuated, no beds, house in deconstruction mode? I'm freaking out here. I'm so lost. I don't even know what to do. Right now, I'm sitting, hidden away, in the bathroom, on the toilet, not even doing anything, just sitting here, thinking...... And the only thing I know, is I will never, ever, ever, figure out why there's this leak in our tub.... I have so much to be thankful for, that others don't right now. My home, is standing, not floating. My home didn't have multiple feet of water in it. My children and animals are all safe. My spouse worked thru the storm when some had no jobs. He worked hard and he came home when I needed him to. My parents and grandparents worked hard with their homes and  kids and with my emotional strength. We did not have to leave the only house my kids call home. My life is not anything to complain about. I'm blessed. But I'm also frazzled. I have no idea what to think right now. Can I just take a morning nap? Would that be okay?

Can we just cancel school for a bit longer lmao

Caos De Vida- Preface

Welcome to "Caos De Vida"
Yall know me and know that i dont have much of a filter when it comes to life. well, heres what happens when i get a whild hair to write things down...

Now, where to start..... How about in the "right now" of life so that i can give you just a hint of whats going on "right now" okay?!

HERE'S A PREFACE----
"What's 'really' going on here..."

At this moment I am contemplating "the number 42", if you dont know that reference, please watch "The Hitchikers Guide to the Galaxy". Its only 1:15 am and im not even the foggiest bit tired. Hmmm thats actually rather concearning. Well, the husband and I have 4 children living in/out of the house that are ours and 2 living out of the house that we have adopted one way or the other. (we have grandkids *sqwee*) Ah, yes, Erick has a great job and im about to get a great job as well. Our kids are all healthy, as are we. Our pets are all happy/healthy and we are waiting to get a small building so that we can put our reptiles in a room of their own. yes they need a room of their own. We live in a house that we just bought in Feb. this year. (i know right?), and with so many animals that i just like saying that, "we have a zoo", instead of answering with all the types we now own. (seriously, wait for the chart below haha) My husband, Polar Bear, drives a running Toyota truck and i drive a great 2005 Tahoe (i named her Martha). Oh back to the ZOO.... we have Great Danes, 2 infact, a Schnauzer, a Pit Bull, 5 Red Tail Boas (all different), 4 hermit crabs, a Reticulated Python, Red Tegu named Gator, 6 different morphs of Leopard Geckos, a crested &  gargoyle gecko, 2 rabbits, a pet rat tamed timmy, and lest we forget the 2 different types of roaches that i breed to feed my geckos & bearded dragons...oh yeah, we have 3 of those. Ever wonder if you could turn your days tasks into a "what my time is spent doing..." pie chart, what that would look like? MINE, the largest slice of that imaginary cherry pie would be laundry or feeding something. HAHA, no really. i'm pretty sure it would look like the most unproportionately sliced thing you have ever seen....ksndnfnbihte54eascdvfbgnhmi,.c>C!SV BN<Kuk8&^5rgsfCZDswe3

Whoops, sorry, 3 am came early and i had fallen asleep. Its now almost 11 am and i have spent the last few hours playing with and feeding all my morning eaters. so fun just having a saturday morning to ourselves and watch tv, play with the dog in my living room and eat breakfast as needed.
Oh and this is what gets fed around here... 

9/24/2016 3:29 PM - Screen Clipping

 So why did I start out with the "right now"? Well, i just wanted to tell you that i have an amazing and chaotic life but it has taken me so much to get where i am that i had to start with whats looks like the end of the story so that you wouldnt be discouraged of the outcome when you get to the gnitty gritty. 


Next Time On "Caos De Vida"

Boobology Degree?......lol

Here is one of my favorite rants from just after having "fatso"

..."I wanted to tan so I don't look like crap the first time I step back out in public in a 2pc....."polar bear" was not quite against it, but he wasn't for it much either!
I had a lactation issue when I laid down on the tanning bed and out of a 5 min tanning session...I got 25seconds :-( I was not a happy camper...My milk came in at the worst time possible! Not when "fatso" is hungry or when she cries or when she over sleeps and I need to relieve the pressure in my breasts...it comes in when we're in Walmart and I can't do anything about it, or in the checkout line at Target and I have no pump and she already ate...
or when I lotion my self up for a tanning bed and have no way of doing a quick express. Not every 3hrs like I want it to..... only every 10hrs or so when there's no way of getting it out of my body and into hers...then I loose it all together and it comes in less often and less amounts....anyway,

I was embarrassed and laughing at the same time about the tan thing, and I was trying to tell "polar bear" what happened and it was as if his silence was screaming..."i told you not to tan, its your own fault that happened"...pist me off! I'm sad now cause I still wanna tan but I want my milk to come in properly....and neither one can happen on a regular basis like I would hope. Even with me taking handfuls of red raspberry and fenugreek 5times a day....I'm lucky to get 4 oz after pumping 2ce. It's pee-sing me off man! I'm outta ideas and I don't know what to do anymore!....where's Dr.Oz at when I need him....."Dr.Oz, why won't my milk come in when my baby needs it? Why is it there when she's asleep or full of formula, and not there when I really want to nurse her?"

~~~Senorita VENTura~~~

Keep in mind this was a while back and yes, I have since fixed the problem and stopped breastfeeding. Just had to share this....